Well, of course I'm going to blame getting sick on having a bad couple of weeks. But if I don't take responsibility for everything I'll never succeed. So. I had a crappy couple of weeks. The first week I was sick I still lost 3 pounds... however I haven't lost anything since. In fact, I gained a half a pound.
But then there is this. I took a weekend "off" on purpose. I just felt if I hadn't taken the weekend off I would have thrown in the towel for a much longer period of time. So I thought it was responsible to have one bad weekend... not to mention I doctor had suggested I take a whole week or two off... so one weekend isn't going to destroy me in the long run.
However, fate smacked me in the face. Halloween weekend - the cheat weekend - I ordered the much desired pizza from Frankie and Johnnies. And guess what. The mutha fuckas burned the bottom of the pizza rendering it icky. Talk about diet Karma. I didn't eat any halloween candy though!
Anyway, I'm back on the wagon as of Sunday and so far so... ok. It's been a small struggle getting back on the wagon but I'm seat-belted in and won't be falling off again until Christmas.
I would love to rejoin Curves or there is this new Gym literally 3/10 of a mile from me called Pink something that would be an ideal place to work out - but alas I'll need to wait for a raise to afford a gym membership. Did you guys know that a membership to the YMCA costs $57 a month. I think that is one of the worst things I've ever heard. Bastard gougers.
Anyway, back to losing weight.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Four weeks down
This morning was my one month weigh in. I'm another 5 pounds down for a grand total of 24 pounds. Super cool, yes!
I'm even wearing an outfit I haven't looked good in since I bought it nine months ago - so to say the least I'm feeling very positive.
Next week is the official end of the first phase of the diet. I'm allowed to do phase one again and then the doctor wants me to take 2-4 weeks off to let my brain catch up with my body. During the time off he wants me to only maintain my weight and not gain or lose. With the momentum I have going that is going to be hard... just stop!?! Ugh! But I suppose that the doctor knows what is best - and maybe not learning how to maintain weight loss has always been the big problem. I'd lose and lose and get somewhere close to a goal and then boom! I had no idea how to maintain - but I was very well learned in how to gain. That is for sure.
With any luck I'll have an incredible week as I'd love to see myself hit 30 lbs in the 5 weeks. I'll have to up the exercise quite a bit - but that'll obviously be worth it if I can hit that mark! The doc has one patient who lost 80 pounds is under 6 months. Obviously this diet works wonders for a lot of people.
I'm feeling good still. Not too hungry. Not too many cravings. I feel a bit peckish still in the evenings - but night time has always been the worst for me. I imagine I've gained 85% of all of my weight in my life after 7pm. To block the hunger, which is minimal, I've been guzzling liquids in mass quantities after work. It's not too much fun getting up to use the loo 5-7 times between 9p and 6a -- but so it goes.
Anyway - I've started letting the office buy my lunch during the week. I've been stopping at a much nicer Whole Foods in Westwood and making a salad on my way into work. I'm keeping a bottle of my apple cider vinegar dressing in the work fridge and all is working well here.
I'm even wearing an outfit I haven't looked good in since I bought it nine months ago - so to say the least I'm feeling very positive.
Next week is the official end of the first phase of the diet. I'm allowed to do phase one again and then the doctor wants me to take 2-4 weeks off to let my brain catch up with my body. During the time off he wants me to only maintain my weight and not gain or lose. With the momentum I have going that is going to be hard... just stop!?! Ugh! But I suppose that the doctor knows what is best - and maybe not learning how to maintain weight loss has always been the big problem. I'd lose and lose and get somewhere close to a goal and then boom! I had no idea how to maintain - but I was very well learned in how to gain. That is for sure.
With any luck I'll have an incredible week as I'd love to see myself hit 30 lbs in the 5 weeks. I'll have to up the exercise quite a bit - but that'll obviously be worth it if I can hit that mark! The doc has one patient who lost 80 pounds is under 6 months. Obviously this diet works wonders for a lot of people.
I'm feeling good still. Not too hungry. Not too many cravings. I feel a bit peckish still in the evenings - but night time has always been the worst for me. I imagine I've gained 85% of all of my weight in my life after 7pm. To block the hunger, which is minimal, I've been guzzling liquids in mass quantities after work. It's not too much fun getting up to use the loo 5-7 times between 9p and 6a -- but so it goes.
Anyway - I've started letting the office buy my lunch during the week. I've been stopping at a much nicer Whole Foods in Westwood and making a salad on my way into work. I'm keeping a bottle of my apple cider vinegar dressing in the work fridge and all is working well here.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Even when you prepare...
So for the last 3+ weeks I've had to prepare pretty much every meal I eat on Sunday afternoons. Which I'm doing mainly because I know I will not cook dinner at night or feel up to packing a lunch. (Pretty sure this is a big part of my weight issues)
I do a big shop on Saturday and buy exactly what I need for the week, no more or less. On Sunday I start the slicing and dicing of veggies and lettuce and the prep of that week's protein. It's becoming easy -- though on week one I was frazzled to shit.
Today was the first day I actually forgot my lunch. Which is particularly frustrating as I literally have THREE alarms on my cellphone that beep and say, "don't forget lunch". Yup. But I did.
I thought sneaking away to Whole Foods would do the trick, however when I got there they only had one protein which was dark tuna - Yuk! Also, they didn't have romaine lettuce OR any of the veggies I usually eat at lunch and therefor could eyeball the quantity. What a waste.
So I made as close to a salad I THINK I can eat as possible and just hope I don't end up starved or end up way over my calories for the day. Which - by the way he says can be as low as 900 a day based on my food diary. Scary shit considering I usually would consume 900 calories in wine usually (or more!).
Needless to say I think it'll be a while before I'm going out for meals. You can literally almost trust no one. My doctor told me his wife used to get this one salad from CPK a few times a week until she finally asked and it was revealed the salad contained over 1800 calories... So even when you think you're being good at a restaurant you can be wrong. Terribly wrong in the case of CPK.
It does suck not letting the office pay for my lunch anymore. I mean damn! I'm offered a free lunch and I can't take it! How many people would kill to be offered a daily free lunch? Maybe someday I could go back to letting them buy me lunch -- but not for a loooong while.
ANYWAY, I'm rambling - but I guess that is what a blog is for.
The good news is Weasley can have my lunch that I forgot today for his dinner. He'll be so freaking happy! He loves my cooking oddly. He also eats toilet paper - so I dare not flatter myself.
I do a big shop on Saturday and buy exactly what I need for the week, no more or less. On Sunday I start the slicing and dicing of veggies and lettuce and the prep of that week's protein. It's becoming easy -- though on week one I was frazzled to shit.
Today was the first day I actually forgot my lunch. Which is particularly frustrating as I literally have THREE alarms on my cellphone that beep and say, "don't forget lunch". Yup. But I did.
I thought sneaking away to Whole Foods would do the trick, however when I got there they only had one protein which was dark tuna - Yuk! Also, they didn't have romaine lettuce OR any of the veggies I usually eat at lunch and therefor could eyeball the quantity. What a waste.
So I made as close to a salad I THINK I can eat as possible and just hope I don't end up starved or end up way over my calories for the day. Which - by the way he says can be as low as 900 a day based on my food diary. Scary shit considering I usually would consume 900 calories in wine usually (or more!).
Needless to say I think it'll be a while before I'm going out for meals. You can literally almost trust no one. My doctor told me his wife used to get this one salad from CPK a few times a week until she finally asked and it was revealed the salad contained over 1800 calories... So even when you think you're being good at a restaurant you can be wrong. Terribly wrong in the case of CPK.
It does suck not letting the office pay for my lunch anymore. I mean damn! I'm offered a free lunch and I can't take it! How many people would kill to be offered a daily free lunch? Maybe someday I could go back to letting them buy me lunch -- but not for a loooong while.
ANYWAY, I'm rambling - but I guess that is what a blog is for.
The good news is Weasley can have my lunch that I forgot today for his dinner. He'll be so freaking happy! He loves my cooking oddly. He also eats toilet paper - so I dare not flatter myself.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Back at it again, but this time I have help!
Once again - I'm at the beginning of the weight loss game. I've been standing here so many times I feel like a classic joke. But I can't remain complacent just because I've attempted and failed so many times before. I have to fight for myself. I have to fight for my life. I have to fight for my happiness. So, if that means allowing myself to be the punch line again, so be it.
I'm tire of being this way. Of course, I've made myself this way. I'm not denying that. But I'm sick and tired.
With the help of my newly reinstated health insurance I think I've found the way.
Sure, everyone says, "this time it just feels different". Well, I'm not going to say that. I'll excuse myself from that weight loss cliche at least. But this time I will say that I feel more supported. I feel like this isn't just a way to loose weight. I feel like someone is finally forcing me to realize that fads and quick fixes are not going to permanently change my life. That only I can do that.
Sure I've been given some amazing tools, but to be quite honest I always had them in a sense. I'm being forced to have structure and to inflict the discipline on myself that I wasn't willing to inflict. It's not tough love. It's common sense. It's always been there. Staring me in the face.
But now I'm finally out of excuses.
So I've started a program called, "Ultra Lite" with my doctor. It's me eating real food that I can buy and cook myself. It's about portion control and a smart balance between protein and plant carbohydrates. It's a distant cousin to Atkins really. A smarter, cousin. A cousin with boundaries and rules and good common sense.
I'm allowed carbs only from vegetables and minimal fruits. However, being a former Atkins devotee I've thus far ignored the fruit list. I'm allowed a very specific amount of protein per meal per day. Which as you know differs from Atkins' unlimited protein. This way, I'm learning. I'm teaching myself what a correct portion of food is.
Like Atkins, I've put myself into ketosis, however it's a very mild ketosis. I'm eating way more veggie carbs on this than I ate in three days on Atkins -- therefor it's keeping me in a light ketosis. So I'm still burning my existing body fat for energy but not at the violent rate of Atkins.
There are shakes. 4 a day. Small ones around 4-6 ounces depending on your own tastes. So far, I'm thinking they're just for appetite curbing. They do help when I feel hungry and they are sweet so they're filling a void at least. The only problem I have with them is it seems like they're mainly milk protein - and for personal reasons I feel like I'd rather they used a different source. Ah well.
In a nut shell, I'm three weeks in and 19 pounds down. Today begins the first day of week four. My doctor says I'm losing weight faster than someone one with lap band surgery and in the end I'm learning how and what to eat instead of having surgery. I'm not dissing people who get the surgery, I'm just aware that a lot of the people getting them aren't getting food counseling also.
Hopefully I'll keep this up during my journey.
I'm tire of being this way. Of course, I've made myself this way. I'm not denying that. But I'm sick and tired.
With the help of my newly reinstated health insurance I think I've found the way.
Sure, everyone says, "this time it just feels different". Well, I'm not going to say that. I'll excuse myself from that weight loss cliche at least. But this time I will say that I feel more supported. I feel like this isn't just a way to loose weight. I feel like someone is finally forcing me to realize that fads and quick fixes are not going to permanently change my life. That only I can do that.
Sure I've been given some amazing tools, but to be quite honest I always had them in a sense. I'm being forced to have structure and to inflict the discipline on myself that I wasn't willing to inflict. It's not tough love. It's common sense. It's always been there. Staring me in the face.
But now I'm finally out of excuses.
So I've started a program called, "Ultra Lite" with my doctor. It's me eating real food that I can buy and cook myself. It's about portion control and a smart balance between protein and plant carbohydrates. It's a distant cousin to Atkins really. A smarter, cousin. A cousin with boundaries and rules and good common sense.
I'm allowed carbs only from vegetables and minimal fruits. However, being a former Atkins devotee I've thus far ignored the fruit list. I'm allowed a very specific amount of protein per meal per day. Which as you know differs from Atkins' unlimited protein. This way, I'm learning. I'm teaching myself what a correct portion of food is.
Like Atkins, I've put myself into ketosis, however it's a very mild ketosis. I'm eating way more veggie carbs on this than I ate in three days on Atkins -- therefor it's keeping me in a light ketosis. So I'm still burning my existing body fat for energy but not at the violent rate of Atkins.
There are shakes. 4 a day. Small ones around 4-6 ounces depending on your own tastes. So far, I'm thinking they're just for appetite curbing. They do help when I feel hungry and they are sweet so they're filling a void at least. The only problem I have with them is it seems like they're mainly milk protein - and for personal reasons I feel like I'd rather they used a different source. Ah well.
In a nut shell, I'm three weeks in and 19 pounds down. Today begins the first day of week four. My doctor says I'm losing weight faster than someone one with lap band surgery and in the end I'm learning how and what to eat instead of having surgery. I'm not dissing people who get the surgery, I'm just aware that a lot of the people getting them aren't getting food counseling also.
Hopefully I'll keep this up during my journey.
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